Out with the Old and in with the New
So the end of the year is approaching which has me reflecting on my past and some very poor choices in my life. I am putting on a brave smile and facing the new year as a close chapters that honestly should have been closed a long time ago. Have I made foolish mistakes regarding men in life? Tons. The good thing about making mistakes is that if you are smart enough you learn from them and grow as a person. These last two months or so found me looking for something that was missing in my life in all the wrong places. It wasn’t until I realized you can’t hang your happiness on others and expect that to make you happy. I learned you make your own happiness in this world, and that was a rather hard lesson to sink in. Yes I was foolish and naive and led astray looking for something that had I opened my eyes I would have seen was right in front of me the whole time. I learned I need to look at the bigger picture not be distracted by the facade. Problem with me I think is that I leap before I look and never really worry about where I am gonna land. For now I am focusing on me and what I need in my life and taking care of that first. Everything else that was suffocating me I am sweeping away. I found a lot of things I was putting up with so I didn’t rock the boat which in the end was just dragging me down. It’s time I take that baby step into the world and face it head on and stop looking backwards at things long gone. This new year is a time for fresh starts and dreams and goals long since abandoned to be picked back up, because as long as you have hope and faith anything is possible.